Living With Sickness, Sadness, Grief, Love, Faith & Fear 6/11/2026

 

Dear Friends ,

I pray you all of you are well, healthy, content and joyful! 

Me, I see the beauty in everything! 

I, ever so intently, look for the good in people.

It's deeply inspiring when I see or hear of someone reaching beyond their comfort zone to help another person or people who in need.

Their sacrificial acts of kindness, generosity and charity inspire me!

Navigating through the journey of my life, I am now using living in a state where sickness has taken more from me than I can afford to lose! 

I am not the healthiest person in the world.

I live with respiratory illnesses that include Chronic Obstructive Pulmonary Disease, Asthma, Pulmonary Hypertension.

I have, in past times, lived through pneumonias and through Sepsis and more...

I require supplemental oxygen to breathe adequately.

I also have Congestive Heart Failure, Igg Defiency and the list goes on...

Living with acute, life threatening illnesses is challenging, difficult, scary, strange and beyond frightening!

I recall past times not long ago 

feeling absolute delight being among nature.

I find calmness and serenity by the smell, sound, feel and taste of the rain. 

Dear, dear friends, 

I have been experiencing more health difficulties lately with frequent and worsening breathing epidodes.

With the least bit mobility, my breathing becomes so compromised where it's more difficult to even breathe!

Just doing a slice of what I used to not long ago has emerged into exhaustion, fatigue and weakness!

I worked with my Physical Therapist the other day.

My physical therapist began our session by taking my Vital Signs first.

My physical therapist and I planned to walk to the lobby of my building, where I live.

We walked to the lobby from my apt while I held onto my rollater walker despite the abnormal numbers of my blood pressure, Heart Rate and oxygen saturations. hesitations from my physical therapist, my physical therapist and I traveled from my apt to the lobby with rest times.

A forced pressure continued feeling pain on my chest feeling as if a Mac Truck had landed on me with the motor still running!

Upon taking my blood pressure was 165/115. My Heart Rate was 115 and my oxygen saturations were dipping dangerously downwards.

Reality swiftly maneuvered into my mind.

Missing my friends set me into an uncomfortable state.

My heart ached from not being in church and worshiping God with my church family.

I feel a strange absence missing church and not worshipping God with my church family!

Not seeing and being the people I love and care about has shaken me into tears!

Feeling distant others hurts!

Not participating in my Life in the manner I feel I need to.

Decorating my heart and soul are, with surgical precision are deep, cut scars that leave the wounds of sadness, heartfelt memories, aches of abandonment, tears of loss and the fear of my mortality that eagerly awaits outside my front door!

The smell, sound and the air of being outside I tearfully missed as well!

To say I'm frightened, well, it's more like terrified!

Today, I am asking for your prayers!

I would love to get well and feel better!

If that is not God's will I donl ask for His Peace!

I would love to be well enough to go to church and to be with my friends, my family, my church family and everyone else!

I would love being with and spend time teaching the children!

I have had dogs since childhood and most of my young adult life!

Please, if I can be, I want to be with dogs, lots and lots of dogs!

Being with my friends, church family, family and spending time with the people our world cannot afford would fill me with joy!

Spending time and teaching children hold hope for me and the world!

And by sending in the dogs I would feel wonderfully happy!

Evelyn Pinto 

June / 2026