ME-as I go through this zany, marvelous, difficult experience called: "LIFE"!

It's cold inside! It must be super-freezing outside!                GOSH, IT'S COLD OUTSIDE! My friends, who had to be outside and suffer through the freezing, super cold and snow-ridden weather, you are all in my prayers. I, not brave enough to bare the elements and trudge outside took these pictures through my apt window and through windows in the building I live in! GOSH, IT'S COLD OUTSIDE!                         Evelyn Pinto                         January 31, 2015

Yesterday, again, I bared the elements and bravely walked outside,  being an outdoor person, loved the fresh air and the sunshine! WOW! The sun-vitamin D express! I do love being outside in the nature of God's creation.                                        Evelyn Pinto                                        January 30, 2015                  

MEDICINE: An Educated Guess! The more specialized the doctor is, the more educated the guess is . The patient is in trouble when the doctor is under the delusion that he knows everything about the problem causing the patient’s sickness. The patient is in even more trouble when the doctor is convinced that he knows more about the patient,  than the patient does about himself or herself!.. Don't Walk - RUN away from a doctor who knows EVERYTHING!  That's a dangerous person   because as we all know  that no one but,  God knows ALL  the answers. The doctor is delusional, narcissistic  or something. In other words, he has  problems. Coming into medicine with a problem, we certainly don't need the doctor's. Oh we, patients  when dealing with many doctors, need more than medicine –We need prayers. This is especially true when at the mercy  of some doctors  (especially emergency room doctors) who push for the quickest and strongest treatment to cure the illness. This cure

                                          The Blizzard of 2015 I bared the elements and went out for a few moments in this blizzard. I began to feel the cold and I trekked back indoors. Folks, I took a few pictures! Venture On:

I am home from the hospital. Though the medical units in the hospital I go for care is excellent, this is not the case of the psychiatric unit. In trauma, some of the staff thought nothing of of breaking patient confidentiality and ignoring the rights of myself, as a patient. Their bad behavior, wheeling me around in the wheelchair angrily, without my knowledge or permission, scared me even more in my fragile state. I fought to defend myself. When I tell someone, several time s to leave me alone please (this nurse was really scaring me) and she continues to enforce the rules over and over again, it is going to get a bad reaction from me (or anyone for the matter). Though some of the staff were really good to me, the people who wrote in my discharge summary, put their very distorted view of what they did wrong, as of they did right. I would like to say to those staff members, no matter how much you say the wrong is right and no matter how much you blame your bad behavior on the patient,

                                                                                                             THE PROMISE Seven o’clock that night, I made a promise to myself and to God, that no matter how bad things got for me (and it has gotten really bad at times), I would never end my life. It happened so fast. In a place of protection. (It was a false protection). I heard Julia jump out the window. I saw HOPE fly out the window as well. I saw people, people who always knew what to do, did not know that night. We were all in Frantic City. I looked out that window. I saw Julia, laying on the ground, 4 stories down, drenched in her own blood. I saw Death visit and just walk away. I cried for help through the confusion, help for Julia. I saw the eyes of burnt out people, people of protection, asking me what to do. GET HELP, GET HELP,  I cried out again and again and again! I glanced and saw the souls of people, people like me, cry out lost souls, like me, were

Well, everyone, things are starting to make sense!  Why?  I realize that Life Does Not Make Sense!  To tell you the truth, I don't know if Life ever, ever did make sense! I know God makes total sense and He is definitely in control of everything! Yes, everyone, I getting back to normal or maybe just getting back to ME, the person I am! There's HOPE In The Air! Love,              Evelyn Pinto             January 24, 2015

 I look out at this gosh awful winter and feel this freezing cold. I then begin to wish for other more comfortable weather. Then I remember...God gave me this day. I woke up to day, in pain-yes but, I woke up and saw the sun today! I have so very much to be grateful for. God has truly blessed me so very abundantly! I may not have lots of money or expensive items but, I'm richer than most people! My health may not be great and I'm sick a lot but, I make friends wherever I go! My family may not always give me everything I want but, they love me lots, they're very much there for me and give what I need! My friends and I may not go out on the town but, they're there for me and I know I can depend on them! I may be alone more than I want to but, I really not alone because wherever I am, Jesus is! You see, I can rejoice and be glad and I can praise My Lord!  Thanks Be To God!                                   Evelyn Pinto

I thank the people who speak out and protect those who cannot protect themselves. Too many people are in a ME world. I pray that they will see beyond their own selves and see the needs of others that they are capable of helping. Also, there are many people fighting battles in their bodies and minds or both. A simple presence of someone in these difficult and painful times could make a huge difference. Pray About This Please!                                     Evelyn Pinto                                     January 19, 2015

It's been days full of fear, darkness, sickness, weakness and loss. It has also been a safeness, not in me but, in others. These others have been loving giving me a safeness I cannot seem to grasp for myself. I'm really scared and fear going into that dark place in my mind again. I pray and pray and pray. Then someone comes in, someone who cares for me She asks how I am I so want to be ok But, how?                           Evelyn Pinto                          January 15, 2015

My friends, so much has been going on with me that I cannot process by myself. Few people I know can know what I'm going through. Fewer know what I have been going through. My friends, while I still can make this decision for myself, I am going from the hospital to a short-term psychiatric placement to get the professional help I need to put my life back on track. I KNOW God sends people to do His work and the people hear, at the hospital I go for my medical care have been there for me. Though  cautious, I'm ready to embark on another part of my journey. I would appreciate any/all prayers and would be so grateful. Cards, phone calls and visits, I welcome too. Please, privately message me, if you want to do any of these. *I wrote the following:                                           Love, Evelyn                                     January 16, 2015 Yes, it is good evening. Realization can make bad things manageable and my soul calm again. Lately, I've been

It's been days full of fear, darkness, sickness, weakness and loss. It has also been a safeness, not in me but, in others. These others have been loving giving me a safeness I cannot seem to grasp for myself. I'm really scared and fear going into that dark place in my mind again. I pray and pray and pray. Then someone comes in, someone who cares for me She asks how I am I so want to be ok  But, how?                                              Evelyn Pinto                                             January 15, 2015

                Broken  Broken I cry out to My Lord It starts as a whisper A quiet whisper Then a cry Then a shout Lord, I’m so broken Heal me Heal my body Heal my mind Heal my soul Heal me, Lord I'm so, so broken             Evelyn Pinto            January 14, 2015

I'm in a position where I am a patient in a hospital where I need the help. I refuse to just to take but, to also give. I make and give cards, showing my appreciation to the amazing people who are helping me. Let me explain a little: I'm in a place, a supposedly negative place where people toss with life and death many times during the day. These people, whether they be doctors, nurses, or any person who works in the hospital find time to talk with me. Their caring and loving d ispositions have made this hospital world more positive. Their appreciation for simple things, a smile, a thank you, and even a card astounds me. Oh, I also park my wheelchair in the hall of the medical unit, which is in the middle of lots of stuff, and greet people as they go through! It's Super Awesome talking to so many people who work here, in the hospital, and hearing about their lives too.                                                                 Evelyn Pinto              

There's something amazing about watching the sunrise. In a state of awe over  God's promise of a new day, you kind of lose yourself and become whole again, despite the traffic of Life! I have been in the hospital for some time. (I will be discharged tomorrow (1-8-15). I needed this time in the hospital to get well and for the doctors to stabilize these troublesome medical conditions I suffer with which brought me to the doors of the  hospital. As of tomorrow, I will no longer  watch the sunrise from this hospital room window . Though the treatment and care I received was at a level of superior excellence, it is still a hospital and I will be glad to go home. Praise God!                                               Evelyn Pinto,                                              January 7, 2015

There is a place in my home (apt) I gave to God only. In the daily routine of life, I can stop, look, sit down and praise God, thank Him and pray. This is God's place, a sanctuary that in my home                           Evelyn Pinto                           January 7, 2014

Sometimes, my chest is so heavy, I feel. that, I have to wrap a towel around my front so my insides don't come out of me.. Evelyn Pinto January 5, 2015

Laying in a hospital bed, in a hospital room, in a hospital is not the happiest part of my life, no, not happy at all. It's scary being here, I have been getting worse, respiratory wise. (I have COPD and Asthma).This is exhausting, fighting so much illness in my body. It's painful and frightening for me It's so lonely in this hospital bed also. It’s totally, totally exhausting, just Fighting. . I pray someone would be here and hold my hand, (even squeeze my hand.). I don't want to be alone in this! I want so much for someone to be here; to be here with me and for me! I'm in a hospital bed, in a hospital room, in a hospital!                                            Evelyn Pinto                                             January 4, 2015                                    Top of Form

I am in the hospital. I'm acutely ill, in constant, continual, severe pain, very congested , have bronchitis (among other medical stuff going on in Me). Ise so much positive through the love, kindness, devotion and experienceeof the staff at the hospital. I see positivityof the love and devotion of my family. I see genuine positivity in my awesome forever friends. This morning, I saw the sunrise. Today, I saw the love and beauty of God!                                                Evelyn Pinto                                                                            January 3,2015

What do you do when you're in the hospital? in the hospital room? in the hospital bed? What do you do when you'tr sick, though feeling somewhat better,  and you feel all alone?alone in the illness,  alone with this illness?What do you do with all this and you are totally                                     BORED? LIGHT BULB GOES ON IN MY HEAD                  AN IDEA SPRINGS FORTH I had my cell phone and took these pictures through the window in my hospital room. These pictures were taken through my hospital window!                Evelyn Pinto                January 1, 2015

The hospital is a not so great place, especially when you are sick. It is a necessary place when you are acutely ill. I have been in the hospital since Monday, 12-29-14. It is January 1, 2015. (I'm spending the the very beginning of 2015 here, in the hospital).. Even when my body hurts and is not working so well, I try to be positive. You see, when you're in a hospital bed, in a hospital room, in a hospital, there's a lot of  realization and scary thinking about stuff (too much thinking) going on in my head. I did see the sunrise, the sunrise through my hospital window and it was AWESOME! Love and prayers,                                  Evelyn Pinto                                 January 1, 2015