ME-as I go through this zany, marvelous, difficult experience called: "LIFE"!

Evel yn Pinto:  With me you have to throw away the instruction manual!  Start from the drawing board and handle me with care!  Don't talk at me or talk above me Just talk with me.  W alk with me and see me in another light, as if you knew nothing about me.  Give me a chance to be myself and  then see me as I am.  Talk with me as a person, an individual.  Don't see my disabilities and/or the wheelchair as me. They're definitely "not "who I am!  Look inside my heart.. There you will find "ME" and know me as the person I Am!                  Evelyn Pinto

I had a bad day yesterday. Today I, now see the bigger picture that it's not all about me. There are people in need that could have even used some encouraging words that I have the capacity to give. I am not going into the regret mode of would of, could of, should of. Instead I.m saying to pray: Make your requests known to God in the name of our Savior Jesus Christ. He has never failed me. Many p eople have. Jesus has not. I just was not blessed with a lot of patience. I know God comes in many forms. He blesses me every day and even when I' ask Him, like Job, why?, He kind says "Look outside of yourself, look within yourself, really look." I had (what one of my my pity parties last night, I'm a grateful person today. I'm grateful to God because I know how much he has and continues to bless me in this zany, wonderful and at times difficult and painful life He has given me. He has put people into my life. Some people I've truly love(...

The End Of Happiness: An Empty Bowl  pf  (What Used To Be) chocolate almond fudge ice cream with nuts and almond sauce.

After a very rough day and night, due to mostly the heat, I'm having a better day. It's cooler now at this time of the morning AND someone gave me a jelly doughnut this morning. I don't know what impressed me more:, the kindness of that person OR the doughnut. . I  presume it was the kindness of that gentlemen  but jelly doughnuts are awfully good!

Through my journey of life, I was never like everyone else, did not care to be. I did not want to be singled out but was different just because I did not care to be the same as everyone else. When you are not like the rest of your peers, there is a mad rush to label you as something. (I really, really hate labels)! I don't understand why, when I just want to be myself people have to put a label on it (.The field of Psychiatry is very busy these days labeling people, including me). Let me sing in the hallways. Let me laugh when I think something's funny.Let me me do my form of dancing (which is twirling around in my wheelchair) 'til I'm too tired to continue doing it. Just let me Be Myself ! Let me be who I am ! Let me be Me!

I am weird (very weird). I am also very, very sensitive. I can identify a lot with these words.   My mind does not think inside the lines and not only does it go outside the box but is somewhere in the clouds. I do not go by any guidelines or fit  any standards. I have an imagination that has wings which gives me power to fly!  I get lonely at times because I, at times, do not get a needed connection by other people.                                                                                               ...

Evelyn Pinto Who helped me in a difficult time: Thank you, Who left me in a difficult time: I got out of it without you, Who put me in a difficult time: I persevered through itit I survived through it all to show you all how very strong I really am!

NO ONE CAN GO BACK AND START AGAIN                                        BUT ANYONE CAN START NOW AND MAKE A NEW END!                                      FORGET                                      FORGIVE                                  BE FORGIVEN                                     MOVE ON!

A Question I've Been Asking Since I Began To Talk                                          WHY? A Statement I've,With Defiance And Passion, Been Expressing Since I Began To Talk                                            NO!                                                                                                                Evelyn           

You don't have to tell God how big your storm is . Tell your storm how big God is! God doesn't cause the bad stuff we go through. He equips us with the strength, courage and all we need to persevere and get through the bad crap that life tosses us. He even walks through it with us so we don't have to fight it alone. We have stuff, stuff that seems out of our control,  happen to us. We also have our God who never leaves or side . God never leaves us through all the trials, the  bad stuff, good stuff and all the stuff we go through in our life. We just have to trust him and let Him in! We may not think at times that God answers us or even there but God is.  God is definitely is  here though  He answers in His Way - His Time. We have to understand that God's Ways have, , especially in really hard times  may not always be our ways or our time may not be God's/ We may not even feel God's presence/  God' is with us,  though answers to ou...

The world is not OK for me now. So much has happened to me to people I love. I'm scared. I am overwhelmed. I've kind of exploded into a zillion pieces and cannot process what has gone on, what is going on or what is going to be going on. I can only see what I now see in  front of me . I'm way to scared to look back or ahead, way too scared!I can't even start to put me together. I can sit here. I don't want to think about things. They don't make sense to me now. People don't make sense AT ALL! THe world is too big and I'm too small. I'm lost in it. I don't want to be swallowed by the world either OR buried in the ground. I'm scared of yesterday. I'm scared of today. I'm scared of tomorrow. I'm scared to move. I am totally paralyzed and broken. I'm broken, broken, used, tore apart, tested, cut up, hurt, then ripped into a zillion, million pieces. I don't got the pieces. . I don't anybody could put me together again!

MEDICINE: An Educated Guess! The more specialized the doctor is, the more  educated  the guess is . The patient is in real trouble when the doctor is under the delusion that he/she knows everything about the problem causing the patient;s sickness. The patient is in trouble when the doctor is convinced that he/she knows more about the patient than the patient does about himself/herself!.. Don't Walk - RUN away from a doctor who knows EVERYTHING!  That's a dangerous doctor (person)  because as we all know  no one but God has ALL  the answers The doctor is delusional, narcissistic  or something. In other words, he has a problem(s). Coming into medicine with a problem, we certainly don't  need  the doctor's. Oh, we patients are in real trouble when we are at the mercy of doctors (especially emergency room doctors) who push for the quickest and strongest treatment to cure the illness. This cure may be risky. At times  the treatment  is ...

I don't physically have my father here to say Happy Father's Day to. I am asking you God, because I know you always hears me, to say care of my dad, hold him close, and always, always let him know how much I loved him and miss him. God, if you could .also wish my father a Happy Father's Day from me please. Thank you, God .