ME-as I go through this zany, marvelous, difficult experience called: "LIFE"!

I've been a week today inpatient in the hospital. Tomorrow I am going home. Though the time in the hospital will soon come to an end, my fighting just to have some form(s) and medical and emotional stability in my life, seems like it will never end! I'm always fighting, fighting to have some sort of wellness in my life! I'm fighting to be acknowledged as a human being. I'm fighting battles that I, as a person, should not have to fight! I'm fighting for credibility, for respect, for dignity. I'm fighting not to be treated as a diagnosis, as a test object, as just a patient (with no identity as a person! I'm fighting to be judged as a person. I'm so tired, especially fighting battles I should not have to fight! Way too many people judge me by the wheelchair, my disabilities and where I live, etc.... Besides fighting illnesses in my body and mind, I'm fighting s  I'm always fighting so  people that don't see me as label(s) given me to mak...

Tomorrow I going to have a procedure done in the hospital I am now in. I am going to have a cauterization of my heart for possible heart blockages .. My stress test, done today, showed heart blockages, which may require stents put in tomorrow also. I have confidence in my doctors and I know they will do the right thing to make me in as good health and as good quality of life as I can ! It doesn't stop my feelings of being very scared and apprehensive about tomorrow. Please join me as I go to God in prayer.                                                                 Evelyn Pinto

It's one of those times in Life that I just have to move, one step in front of the other! If I can't move by steps, I'll drag myself!! If I am still struggling and after trying and trying,and still can't possibly do it alone, I know I've reached the point help, help that only the acute setting of a hospital can give! While going through this time of trial and pain, I have been desperately calling for My God to please get me through this ! Yes, My Family and Friends, I am in t he Hospital again! It's so very frustrating to me to need the care of a hospital the many times that I do! I feel alone, while still asking God for reasons of having to continually have to go through all this difficult stuff!. If anyone could call me me or visit me in the hospital, I would gladly welcome this! It would lift my spirits a lot to have contact with people besides hospital staff! (If you want to know where I am, please ask family members and close friends). Signing off, from ...

I've been thinking: Two Dates seem so important to society, our Birth and our death. Really, to me, these dates are just a bookmark, a reminder to people when and where a person was born into this world! The in between, what we make of your life after our birth, to me is what counts! This journey in this in between state, our life can have great significance! God gives us all the power to change the world! Our Lord gives an example when He walked the Earth of how to love e ach other and to serve, be of service to our brothers and sisters and to do good that we may glorify Him! I’m trying God! How am I doing?                           Evelyn

I figured out what my grey hairs are---Stress Highlights! After a difficult week, a stressful weekend and a predominantly Manic Monday, Tuesday's mood didn't do much much in the Improvement Department! The weather lately with its' rapid changes, has me really sick both physically and emotionally! Being,a positive, even in difficult times, I wish I felt better! I wish My Life would slow down, I need to rest! I wish The Me, Inside of Myself would slow down, I need to rest!                                                                                                      Evelyn

The world seems really, really complicated to me these days! I want to understand why people make the choices they do! Gosh, at this point, It puzzles me why people react to me the way they do! t's a more challenging mystery, why I am the way I am and why I make the choices that I do! I've come to this conclusion: Before I even begin to understand this sometimes crazy, really complicated world, I've got to look inside myself, understand me first! An Always Asking Questions, Evelyn

Evelyn Pinto I am where I am for a reason! I am what I am for a reason! I am who I am for a reason! I am not famous, did anything remarkable, changed mankind or anything like that. I am who I am though! God gave me strength, courage, gifts And God gave me wings! God made me who I am And with the wings that God gave me, I'm going to change the world Or Maybe just my part of it! By Evelyn Pinto May 8, 2014

We Should See What We Have In Common With Our Neighbor(s) , Not Notice (And Judge By) Our Differences! If we only had a magic wand and could see inside everyone we encounter, I think we might be more patient, caring and nicer to our neighbors. We would also realize we all share common ground, we are all human beings. We are all made the same way with the same emotions. We are human beings . We may be going through different stuff but, we all go through happy times as well  as difficult and painful trials in our journey in life!. We should all see what we have in common instead of just noticing (and a lot of times, judging by) what is different! Many times people see my wheelchair and already make a judgment of me and what I am like by just the wheelchair. They see where I live and then there’s another judgment of me by my living situation. They see my medical and psychiatric diagnosis sheet and there it goes, more judgments made before they even meet me! I’ve been giv...

People in assisted living, nursing homes, group homes, hospitals and other facilities do not “have it made”, I’ve heard way too many people refer to people living in these place  described as: “You have it made” I wish I had your life” and other hurtful, ignorant statements! These words are demeaning to myself, and others who live in these places. ,  They show how so many are  misinformed of persons health conditions. People in mine, and other facilities, are there  for many reasons.  To use those kinds of words to describe mine and the lives of  others, who’ve had to give up so much, is insulting! We are where we are because most of us have health issues  that could not be treated in our own homes. These health conditions I am describing are very painful, life threatening, stressful, chronic, depressing, etc.,,  Words like “You have it made” are such an insult to me! These words shows total ignorance of our  health conditions. ...