PANDEMIC 7, THE PANDEMIC'S LASTING EFFECTS, 3-20-2021
PANDEMIC 7
The Pandemic’s Lasting Effects
Dear Family and Friends,
I received the 2nd dose of
the Pfizer vaccine on February 23rd.
I should be ecstatic that I did get
the vaccine.
I should be jumping for joy that I
didn’t get Covid-19 as well.
Well, my family and friends, though I
am super grateful for both of these good fortunes, I am not jumping for joy.
The months of isolation, the loss of
people I love, the loss of the life as I knew it and not being with those I
love, especially when they needed me, has had its’ lasting effects on me.
Not being able to grieve and,
especially not being able to grieve with others, has also taken its’ toll on
me.
I am usually the person who has
bountiful energy and able to go out to others.
Now, I find myself depressed, feeling
alone and struggling.
I want to be with those I love,
especially my 91+ years old mother.
My mother is now inpatient in the
hospital with fluid buildup in her lungs.
I want to be there for my mother,
help her to feel better.
My friends, I am paralyzed with fear,
the fear of losing my mother to sickness and age.
I am sick with worry over the chronic
health conditions of my family, my family whom I dearly love.
I am so troubled about the chronic
health conditions of those supportive friends, whom I also love.
I, myself, not being the healthiest
person in the world, face my own mortality.
The world has taken on a whirlwind of
differing attitudes, opinions and self-righteousness.
There are opposite views of right and
wrong, moral and immoral, correct and politically correct.
I am anxious, confused, dazzled,
depressed and feel outright chaotic!
This is a time when I need to pray.
I pray to my God, who is Stability in
an ever changing world.
I pray to my God who is a Lamp in my
darkness.
I pray to my God who is a Presence in
my loneliness.
I pray to a God whom holds me up,
when I am about to fall.
I pray to my God who ever present in
my troubles.
I pray to God to help those who are
sick, hurting and scared.
I pray to God to help everyone I can
think of and more.
I pray to God to cure this hurting
world.
I pray to Jesus who walks beside me,
comforting me as I walk along this Journey of my Life.
Yes, my friends, though I am troubled
and depressed, I know I’ll be okay.
I’ll be alright because I have the One
who carries the world on His Shoulders, also walk beside me.
Love and prayers,
Evelyn Pinto
March 20, 2021
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